TRITAKA

I was testing out a strange thought that came to me; that mosquitoes were electro-magnetic heat seekers, and being so, were susceptible to electrical energy waves.  Waves, I had discovered, that could be pulsated from my own electrical energy field or aura.  I had discovered that the quality of true thought or non-thought, combined with the lowering of my breathing frequency made my aura thicker and slower until it began to affect the flight of the mosquito swarm.  Bio-tele-kinesis?
I was obsessed with telekinesis at the time and every waking moment was absorbed in some experiment in extra sensory perception.  This particular experiment with the mosquitoes hinged upon 
a concept that Gurdjieff expounded, that:

"EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD IS MATERIAL.  EVEN THOUGHTS ARE THINGS!"

With this principle as the spearhead for my forays into the powers of the Mind I was able to see the tangible effects of thought upon matter and I became absolutely convinced with the right linking of my mind and body, through using my controlled thoughts combined with the intensity of my breath(feelings), I could effect the electro-magnetic mechanisms guiding the mosquitoes to my fertile flesh.  

It was easy for me to generate intensity for this experiment as mosquito seemed to know me as a worthy dinner and told their friends, while my traveling companions go unnoticed by the mini-vampires.
 

My early experiments in linking thought and feeling up came from an eight thousand year old concentration exercise called Tritaka in Sanskrit.  Tritaka was simply a series of exercises to become aware of and control the movement of the eyes, which the mystics discovered was closely linked to the "mindstuff"; the currents and pulsation's behind thoughts.
The first step in Tritaka is to stare at an Immovable object, like the tip of your nose or one spot on the wall, until it remains unchanged for 1 minute.  This is much more difficult than it sounds, and you soon become aware, how the eyes, and therefore the thoughts, jump around.  The goal of the spot staring exercise is to bring the will and self awareness into the eyes.  At first this seems impossible as they are constantly flickering, watering, closing, hallucinating.  Eventually the breath starts to act like a brake on the eye movements and thoughts and a subtle clarity begins.  I was actually seeing the spot as a spot.  Then the real ride began!

The spot I was staring at would become anything but the spot, Rhorsach images, flickering aura, incredible ideas, flashes and meanings would appear one after the other.  This in turn would lead to Brainscape scenarios and trips into never-never, always-always space.  Big blocks of time would disappear and lifetimes would be lived as my burrowing concentration on a single point was penetrating the time barrier of corpus callusum. 

These journeys can he fantastic flights of imagination that take you away from the point of Tritaka which is to simply "see" the spot on the wall.  As if waking from a deep dream all of a sudden the spot comes out of the mind generated landscape and becomes clear.  At that point the mind/body starts to reorganize itself and the thought /feeling connection is strengthened and the auric electrical field becomes stronger.  Although most of the time the mental field trips that take place while staring at the spot are just neural distractions conditioned into your attention span, sometimes they can be deep and life changing revelations.  As If the very act of concentrating this deeply causes another level of being, a different reality or as Gurdiieff would say "a more real I".

My personal extra-strange life changing experience sounds like a psychedelic drug trip but it came after about 2 months of Tritaka.

I was 18.

The full Moon was howling as the jagged indigo silver-lined clouds passed over it's face.  The wind, tearing down the midnight streets of Regina, Canada carried a great electrical charge of negative ions released from the previous downpour.   Static electricity was everywhere and the air smelled and tasted of ozone,  as lightning bolts were being pulled down to the endless black plains surrounding the city.  There was a restless stirring of energy in me rivaling the thunderstorm as  I left the old Victorian house I was hosteling at to walk around the block, drinking in the ions in a frenzied, focused stride.

My mind was in a transfixed state.  Walking with no thoughts I was enveloped with a growing sense of Socratic strangeness.  I was becoming supercharged but I had no understanding or knowledge of what was happening.  I had no choice as my body was following impulses that conscious awareness could not detect, while my mind was pulled into a current of concentrated
Tritaka.  I was being controlled by a force not from the outside but from the inside from deep within my organism, which made the outside and the inside the same.

After walking around the block 4 times the electrical charge in my body and emotions became so intense I had to go back into the Hostel.  My traveling companion, Laura, who had witnessed these strange states in me before and had a curious acceptance, deflected the other travelers from questions and small talk as I made my way across the room to the basement door.  Unseen I descended the stairs to the under-room.  There were washing machines and stored stuff all around and a big wicker throne chair like you would see in an import store.
“Perfect !"   My body made it to the chair and flowed into full lotus position, as spine clicked into an immovable state.  Even my knee joints locked.  My gaze naturally drifted to the easy point center of my settled position fastening upon a small nailhead on the wall.  The strong energy charge I had built up assisted me into having crystal clear focus immediately. It was one of those Tritaka times that happened effortlessly.  I was being pulled into a deep trance by my own organism.
Then something happened that hadn't happened before (although It did reappear again in different times and context).  A small blue bubble began to appear on the head of the nail.  It was both luminescent and translucent and I was able to perceive the texture and a strange pulsating that matched my own heartbeat.  But then the orb began to grow and wobble like a huge sapphire soap bubble.

Attention transfixed, I was determined to ride this session out to It's conclusion not that I could do anything else.  There was no way to change what was happening to me.  By now the bubble was about three feet wide and within inches from my nose .
Then it happened.  The bubble passed through me and I found myself in a world of liquid blue, senses swirling in a velvet cobalt.  A warm silence, a stillness so profound pulled me into a perfect sense of total rightness.  Wellness spread throughout my being for what seemed hours.  But it was only minutes of a rapturous state of full attentiveness.  Suddenly there was a deep clicking or pop inside my skull like something fell into place.  And then came ... THE VOICE!
Piercing the deep tranced silence, clear and loud, resonating with total authority and knowing, was a voice I "knew" to be the superself.  I don't know how I knew that, because I never heard of the superself.  I just knew that this was a true voice.

It spoke only one command.
 

"YOU WILL USE YOUR HANDS TO HEAL,!"

And my head and neck were then released and the from energy that was holding them and my gaze drifted down with n sensation of moving through heavy water to my hands on my lap.  They had become two glowing golden iridescent orbs, with a feeling around them like I had put my hands in jars of honey.
With this realization and thought form firmly implanted with a new idea from a deeper level of being and awareness, I felt I had my life-path and purpose revealed.  It was not long after this I did my rirst real healing . AND IT WAS ON MY SELF. ...

But that is another tale another time in the travels of an American mystic.
 

Ah! but what about the mosquitoes?...

To return to the beginning of  my tale which was the development of a highly charged aura to affect the flight of a swarm of mosquitoes through the linking or the thought/breath developed through the discipline of Tritaka; I can report success! Although not necessarily a solution to my mosquito problem.  For it is absolutely true that one evening when I was inhabiting a highly charged and thick aura, with one pointed directness I aimed it spherically the whole swarm surrounding me.  As the thoughtwave ( as Gurdjieff said "thoughts are things") hit the swarm they fell like paperweights slithering and buzzing along the ground to no avail.  My thoughtwave had dislocated their navigation .  

As I got up and left I noticed the swarm begin to take off one by one until they eventually all recovered.  I was in so weakened a state from building up and releasing the charge it was obvious that frequent applications of a natural insect repellent such as citronella, was far less energy expenditure, so I gave up on that experiment;   although many years later I did manage to clear mosquitoes from a two acre parcel of jungle.  But that too is another story in the TraveIs of an American Mystic.